For the last few weeks, you can probably tell there has been a bit of a radio silence on broadcast. Going into the details of the "whys" and "Who's" are probably best kept to oneself, merely because of the fragility of others involved.
However, what I can share is the realisation I had at the beginning of this week that moved me to decide to step back from the tornado of chaos I was experiencing and walk away from it.
Asking myself what it I was that I was ultimately looking for that made me take those decisions in the first place were based on the fundamental I've always held with high importance in my life;
The belief that one has the right to prove themselves in a situation where others are trying to bend the truth.
I've never liked being accused of something I've not actually done, especially when at the time, I did things to help others out in times of need. The natural response has always been to fight one's right for truth against those who wish to paint you with tar that is of their making NOT yours.
I had to make a choice this week. The choice of being comfortable with saying that I don't need otheres acceptance of the real story. Im happy to say "I know who was right", "I know what was said and what wasn't said" and those who claim otherwise are merely fooling themselves and running away from their own demons. As they scrabble from their own problem, they're pushing their demons onto others (they do catch up with their orignators very quickly though!).
The good news is that eventually this kind of thing sorts itself out. I'm a believer in Karma and I know it'll come bite sooner or later. I'd rather not be around when it does, because I know the same behaviour will just be repeated all over...that's for someone else to experience, not me.
I can quite happily hold my head up and smile, knowing the future will contain one less bad energy, one less reason to fear newness and one less reason to celebrate the many things I know I will now do because of this change in course and direction to my life.
If there is one thing I thank those fools I no longer suffer gladly, it's the newness their actions now put in front of me.....exciting, challenging, rewarding. Dad would call it Character Building!